Eerie Myths

Sometimes, it’s ok to take your pants off and wear your skivvies.

eerie myths — Sun, 20 Nov 2011 23:32:58 +0000

So while I desperately try to avoid studying for my micro exam, I thought I would update this blog. I know I should be studying diligently because my A in that class depends on it, but I am simply tired of school and I’m really looking forward to a break, even if it is only for a day or so.

Anyway, I wanted to write down some things that I learned about my self this week, and maybe at some point i’ll elaborate on them:

- I love to cook. It’s really therapeutic.
- I also love cleaning, fixing things, and general housework.
- I hate doing laundry.. particularly when you have a machine in the building’s basement that costs $2.50/load to wash and dry.
-They keep telling me some day I will want kids. I would be surprised if I did want them. Honestly, why would I want to be responsible for tiny lunatics? Then again, I was also the one who wanted a dog; I don’t think it would be fair for the dog since I probably will have to work odd hours.
-About the odd hours thing.. I heard in my field it’s super hard to get a job on day shifts.. so that means pms or nights… I’m not sure how I feel about the whole thing, but I’ve got 7 months to sort it out.
- I’ve been going back and forth about continuing my education or getting out into the “real world”. If I were to go back for school after I graduate, more than likely it would be med school. Now WHY I’d want to torture myself is another matter entirely… but I don’t know.. what’s next is always looming.
-Last but not least: I want to move.. I don’t know where to, but it’s really been bothering me for a while.

Well, i’m glad I got that off my chest. And now for the main attraction, the title of the piece. What every woman should know… sometime’s it’s ok to take your pants off and wear your skivvies. For anyone I personally know, I hope I didn’t give you a blinding mental image.. but sometimes, life’s just too rigid. Think about it; how many hours do you spend wearing that piece of clothing? Don’t you think they might need a rest from you too? And if you’re not sharing an apartment with roomates you hardly know (or you aren’t shy at all), it’s ok to just step out of that rigidity called pants and experience the freedom you’ve been missing wearing pants. Maybe you haven’t shaved your legs or your pedi is in need of a makeover; so what? Let your inner (semi) nudist out.. wherever he may be

An evening fireside chat…

eerie myths — Sun, 09 Oct 2011 00:33:33 +0000

or maybe just a thoughtful blog post. I love reading old blog posts; it gives me such a picture into the life I previously lived… particularly emotionally. I often forget where I came from and sometimes it helps to have a friendly reminder in the form of words to show me the way. It shows me that I’m always better off than I imagine.

So I’ve been thinking a lot about the things every woman should know and I think I need to write more down about these. I talked about finding inner beauty, asking for help, doing something that makes you happy, and having a sixth sense for assholes in my previous posts. The theme for today should be learn how to take care of yourself. I know this goes along hand in hand with asking for help, but I think the “mothering, nurturing” side of women often becomes a curse. We feel that we must take care of people first, and in turn push our own needs out of the way. This is something I am trying to address for myself. Now, I know I’m in an apartment and that I have no one to take care of but me, and yet I still am trying to push that aside. I need to start focusing on me; after all, no one else will do it for me.

More on this later- I know I always promise I will write more, try to keep up the blog, etc. but I will really attempt to this time. I need an outlet other than schoolwork.

Either I only write when I’m drunk…

eerie myths — Tue, 24 May 2011 04:32:30 +0000

Or to prove to myself that I need an outlet so I know I’m not insane. Doesn’t really make sense, does it? But I think I check in here to know that I do have this thing, to check up on life and to blog about what keeps me down, up, or inside out. Or it could have to do with insomnia tendencies,but idk.

Anywho- it’s been a while but here’s another what every woman should know: have a sixth sense for assholes. It sounds harsh I know, but I’m tired of seeing people date assholes. Women have an uncanny knack for finding really awful guys, dating them for periods of time and then ending up miserable or breaking up with them, claiming they will never date the opposite sex again and that they have lost hope in humanity (I know, you’re all screaming run-on sentences, but bear with me here). Go with your instincts… always. If there is something telling you this isn’t right, dont’ smush it inside. Talk it out!

On an aside, or as a bonus to the what every woman should know… no man should control you. Take for instance a good friend of mine. Recently she broke up with her boyfriend, and told me she would have to send her call logs to her boyfriend while he was away and never delete any text messages. She would also spend all of her time with him, and never do fun things. This isn’t normal… this is not normal… THIS ISN’T NORMAL. There, I said it three times.There are lots of things you should be in control of, not them; if they respect you enough, they will trust you to take care of those things without their interference. I consider his behavior a breach of privacy in all reality..and a lack of respect for my friend. Seriously, If you have enough self-respect, you won’t go out with these types of people.

All right, enough said. Later times and sweeter rhymes.

New Year, New Workout, New Me

eerie myths — Sun, 23 Jan 2011 14:24:02 +0000

Since I got into my clinicals, I’ve been really trying to eat healthy and actually think about what I’m doing to my body when I don’t eat healthy. I would love to walk into clinicals at least 30 pounds lighter. Some days, I may overdo things, but realizing that everyone has some oops days in a while and that I’m learning will hopefully help me reach my goals.

On Friday, I started working out with a cardio tape I bought. Its really hard, but I accomplished 9mins and then did another walking workout for 21 minutes.

Today, I improved my workout by going 12 minutes on the cardio tape, 18 on the walking, and doing 30 situps. I know this doesn’t sound like a lot of improvement, but I have to pace myself and motivate myself to keep going.

sooo… I wanted to celebrate a bit

eerie myths — Tue, 18 Jan 2011 22:17:16 +0000

I got into my clinical year for my major recently, and I’m soo excited! Moving onto bigger and better things and finally going places. I am so relived (sp?) that it happened, and I’m ready to have the best semester EVER. Seriously, I don’t think there are many people on this campus who have a better semester planned than I do.

Ok enough bragging. I did say I was going to try and write things that I think every woman should know, right? So the first one for the new year is find things that make you happy. I think that most of today’s world focuses on fixing the negative.. which, great… glad you’re solving problems. But what would be more productive is to take a few minutes out of your day and think of something that makes you happy. I’ve been doing that lately and I definitely think it helps my mood improve. I’ll list a few things

flowers
music
christmas lights
puppies

what’s your list?

you don’t have problems, you only have nuisances

eerie myths — Tue, 02 Nov 2010 19:16:21 +0000

A professor told us that during lecture today and it slapped me in the face. Literally, I think I complain a lot. Not that I really intend to- I just get irked by certain things and I’m trying to express some of those annoying little things before they all explode. But when my professor told us that we really don’t have problems, we only think we do, that certainly hit home for me.. I mean, I truly don’t have problems. I am healthy, I have a good family life, my roomates are quirky but good people, I have a good job, good classes and a good outlook on life. So while this really shocked me at how true this statement was, I thought it would be a good way to write a little life lesson and vent about my week. People dont’ have problems, they have nuisances; unless you are terminally ill or have detrimental issues, there is not many problems that we have. We may like to think we have some problems, but they’re really just small things that bother us. So we have to take a step back and realize that these nuances are only temporary- they may seem big right now, but in the future and the grand scheme of things, they’re really miniscule.

Now granted that I just took the time to write that, the other part of the reason I keep this blog is to write things down when I get absolutely stressed out. Instead of word vomiting on my friends and stressing them out to no end, I’m going to write down here what is a nuisance to me at the moment so when I read this in the future, I’ll really get a laugh about what’s bothering me.

Right now, I haven’t been home or had a break since labor day. This is causing some stress on my family as they don’t get to see me or spend time with me, along with major mental and physical strain on myself. Most days I am up at 6 and don’t go to bed until midnight or later..while I do get to party.. the repercussions may affect my grades or sleep patterns trying to catch up. I haven’t seen friends for more than a few minutes and I miss some of my old friends. I don’t mean to complain and make it sound like I have a horrible life, I’m just frustated and I’ve reached the point at the semester that I should be all fired up for the last 5 weeks of school when grades and material count, but I just don’t feel up to the challenge.

There… I feel much better now.

find your inner beauty….

eerie myths — Thu, 28 Oct 2010 01:14:25 +0000

another one of those life lessons that are tough to get right on the first time around. I know that I’m not what you call a natural beauty or a conventional one.. personally, I think that I have traits that make me look somewhat fortunate (good hair, skin that tans, nice eyes) but I’m not really someone that would cause guys to drop what they’re doing and ask for my phone number. No, sadly.. I’ve never been one of those girls.

However pathetic that statement might seem, it’s helped me to see past looks and physical features to see how people are on the inside. I think that you could be the most drop dead gorgeous woman on the planet, but if you’re ugly on the inside, then there’s no point to that beauty. So this is why I stress inner beauty.. I think on the inside, I’m drop dead gorgeous. I know who I am finally and I know what kind of person I want to be. I know that I’m willing to work hard and my personality traits make me a good person friend-wise, employee wise, student wise, family wise, and much more. If you’re struggling to fit into a world that focuses on physical beauty.. learn to find the beauty within first. It takes practice (much like trying to put on mascara or shave your legs), but the results will help you become more confident in you..inside and outside.

some people are just rude

eerie myths — Wed, 27 Oct 2010 00:07:45 +0000

And there’s nothing you can do to change it.

For example- I always try to include people, including the people I live with. If I’m going to the grocery store, I’ll ask if they need anything picked up. If they’re out of town, I ask if they need pets fed. I clean up after myself, I’m courteous.. and what do I get in return? A roomate who shuts the lights off and turns off the ac b/c she doesn’t want to live comfortably. Roomates who don’t invite me places but will do stuff together and invite one another in front of my face. Getting passive agressive notes about what I can and can’t do b/c they don’t want to talk to me about it. I guess I should have just graduated on time. I should have stayed in the f-ing dorms because they are weird. I dunno; maybe “I’m weird” because when I go to get dinner, I ask the other roomate…hey, you wanna go?

I guess what it boils down to is that some people are just down right rude. And there is nothing that can change that mentality, no act of kindness you can perform to make them realize you.. you just have to make do and realize that they’re the ones missing out, not you. And it’s totally ok to think they’re rude.

Lesson #2…

eerie myths — Sat, 16 Oct 2010 03:32:17 +0000

Learn to ask for help. Now this is something I’m still trying to learn as I go through life. As women, I think we have a natural tendency to take on the world and do all we can, most often simultaneously. This is a pitfall to some- it causes stress levels to skyrocket and much more. So by learning to ask for help- it not only reduces stress levels, it also helps make connections with other people, and teaches one to learn how to depend on others.

I think this is one thing I struggle with the most. I want people to think that I’m strong, so I put my best in everything I do and give almost always 110%. In doing this, most often I stretch myself thin and sometimes put other people’s needs before my own. Not that I’m complaining; I do enjoy doing most of these things, but I realize as of recent that I need to start asking people for help. I need to start building those relationships with others and looking to others for support, knowing that no matter what I do, they will be there to help or just be there.

I used to blog a lot in high school…

eerie myths — Fri, 08 Oct 2010 06:25:28 +0000

Remember Xanga?? In my high school, everyone I knew had one of these things and we all talked about our feelings, wrote poetry and much more. I wish I still had some of my poetry b/c I don’t remember what I did with it. any who- I think I want to write a book; it might already be out there, but it should be about things every woman should have/do. Here’s one of the topics that should be in that book:

Every woman should have a good group of friends.

Friends are important. They pick you up when you’re down and they cheer you when you least expect it. More importantly, it’s good to have a good group of friends for certain things. Ones that you can turn to for everything, ones you can turn to for work stuff, etc.

That’s all I can think of for now. I know I keep saying I should use this more often, but I think I want to try to. for real. let’s see how well I keep up.